sentimental

what is my issue since i returned from mexico? i havent been my bitchy self ... its starting to scare me. like tonite - i cant sleep and i actually thinking of reverting to drinking a warm glass of milk and eating half a banana (my mom used to give me that when i couldnt sleep) what am i six? everything is sentimental to me ... except what should bother me isnt.

tonite we went to a movie - jarhead (good movie) but gregs new chica called and i listened as he talked to her, but it didnt stir any feelings of rage or serious jealousy (there was a hint - but not what im used to feeling). either im starting to lose my mind - or im maturing. whatever it is .. it's - different.

i need to go to bed now - after my warm milk i crave. nite nite.

-la.